My Eyes January 6, 2009
Correspondences in space and time with strangers who become familiar beyond the daily societal habits of one’s life. We become each others’ confidantes and audiences with eyes wide open and dreams of poetry. Attracted to a way of writing, to an intensity of the soul that we somehow are not afraid to expose. There is an element of time that exceeds all boundaries of awkwardness and expectations. Silence which allows each of us to be genuine, to “think before you speak”, to dig just a few steps deeper into the hallways of our inner world. Opening doors that lie invisible in the rushed daylight.
In the peaceful darkness of contemplation, however, I peak over to the right, take a few steps, place my hand on the rusty knob of a redwood door and open it as though it had always been there. I don’t know that I had never seen it before. It opens slowly and I have to push it harder — the loud squeek almost frightens me as I look around to make sure I don’t rattle too many neighbors. I expect to find total darkness, spiderwebs and dust. I enter and my heart beats too loud. The moment I let go of the knob the room begins to brighten as though someone had placed a rising sun inside it. Reds and oranges and yellows taint the high-ceilinged walls of this now bright and happy room. I take one more step and the heavy door slams shut behind me. I am no longer frightened. A calm rushes over me and as I stand in the middle of the room, I can no longer move my body. My arms are heavy and try as I may, I can not lift them.
It is my eyes. All my senses gather in my eyes. And their abilities are multiplied…I am transfixed…almost floating.
I think I must be dreaming but it is daytime and I am awake. And I am writing.
Colors dance around and through me. Images appear and disappear on the walls and ceilings. Words shoot through my throat, my knee, my abdomen. Ancient history and universal infinity discuss the meaning of the word “path” with Buddhist philosophy near the window. I hear mumblings of multiple conversations around me and I catch words here and there. My eyes listen — they feel — they taste — they touch — they smell. I close them. I take a deep breath. I smile and open them again. I am on my couch, listening to the hissing of the heater and the bells of the cable car. I close my eyes, hoping to return to the happy room. I don’t. I open my eyes and I am here. I am writing. And the only word I can end this sentence with is: POTENTIAL
Everybody’s got to learn sometime December 24, 2008
Watched “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind” for the second time yesterday. A really good movie (if you haven’t seen it yet)…this song really stuck to me all evening…I really like Beck’s version of it.
Alaska Women Reject Palin Rally September 14, 2008
Mudflats reports today on a rally organized by women in Anchorage, Alaska. He himself was floored when he got to the rally expecting to see about 15 or 20 people protesting. Instead, he found over 1400 women and men holding up signs, people honking…here is his post:
Alaska Women Reject Palin Rally is Huge!
Please pass this post on to your friends or post it on your own blog!
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Did you watch last night’s opening scene of Saturday Night Live? Well, Tina Fey did it! wow! amazing!
(I can’t post the video directly to my site ~ NBC copyright ~ so just go to this site:
Tina Fey as Sarah Palin on SNL
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Bill Maher’s New Rules for September 12th:
More about Sarah Palin September 12, 2008
I don’t even know where to start or stop…early in the mornings I read articles online and watch videos on youtube. I don’t do that all the time, but lately with this whole Sarah Palin pick, I can’t keep myself from it. I am still in shock and even though I still think it’s a big joke (God! I hope I’m right!), there is a part of me that is frightened that too many people will fall deeply for the bullshit the Mc Cain / Palin Campaign is feeding the public.
So I found this article on Alternet.org titled 8 More Stories About Palin that the Public Needs to Know. Here are the 8 points. Click here to read the entire article:
1. Palin paid herself to stay at home.
2. Next to Palin, even McCain looks like an economic genius.
3. Palin’s Wasilla charged rape victims for their sexual assault exams.
4. Palin may have rewarded serviceman with promotion for his about-face on her candidacy.
5. Palin isn’t big on government transparency.
6. Even Ed Koch, who supported President Bush, thinks Palin is “scary.”
7. Palin’s views are so extremist her own friends may not vote for her.
8. Palin and Big Oil’s interests: one and the same.
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Yesterday I watched parts of her interview on ABC News with Charlie Gibson. I am posting the part where she is asked about the “Bush Doctrine”. I myself don’t need to know what the Bush Doctrine is. Sarah Palin (possibly the future VP of the United States of America, possibly the future PRESIDENT of the United States of America) DOES! Her answer: In what respect, Charlie? (hear the nervous breathing when she says this?)
I find this segment to be very interesting. I am always interested in non-verbal body language. I am not a psychologist or a expert. This is purely my own personal observation and yes, perhaps I am nit picking…but…in observing her I saw this:
- she is nervous and tries very hard to cover it up. Most people would say “of COURSE she is nervous”! But her nervousness is not because she is being interviewed on national TV. I think she is a very confident, perhaps over confident person. She looks like a tough person who can take a lot. Her nervousness though is because she KNOWS that there is a LOT she doesn’t know. And these things she ought to know. It is expected that someone chosen to be the vice president of a country should know a LOT about pretty much everything pertaining to the country. She doesn’t and she knows it.
- She’s smart. When Charlie Gibson asks her that question, I can just imagine her saying to herself “What the F—k is the Bush Doctrine? Damn! they didn’t teach me that yet!”. She pretends to know what it is. She kills time (waiting for more facts) by giving a blah blah blah answer about what the Bush Administration has attempted to do…not a response about the Bush Doctrine…not until Charlie explains it to her…now comes what she was waiting for.
- He explains to her what the Bush Doctrine is and you can see the relief in her face and she is soaking in the new information while trying to look like she already knew that. Again. She is smart. She is quick. She immediately responds to what she just learned by giving a little pep talk about how we have every right to defend ourselves if there is an imminent threat…pretty much confirming/repeating what he just explained to her.
- In her response to the next question (do we have the right to enter Pakistan from Afganistan without the approval of Pakistan) she says among other things: “we must do whatever it takes, Charlie, and we must not blink”. To me, this is exactly what she is going to try to do in the next 6 or so weeks. She knows that she has to come across as confident, knowledgeable, capable, strong and this is how she will do it. She will do what it takes and she will not blink. Look straight into the eye of the interviewer/public. Lean in closer. Aggressive. Confident.
- In a way, I feel sorry for her. I imagine that 100% of her time is spent with experts who are drilling her, training her, preparing her. I guess she was carefully chosen and she is now being molded. I feel sorry for her because I think she thinks she can handle it. I imagine that she is very strong and yes, probably can handle a lot. She seems powerful and ruthless. She is not stupid.
But I think she is going to crack under the pressure. I really think so. 6 weeks is a very very long time. I think she should crack. Except if she is not questioned enough. She might just get away with it unless there are more such interviews that challenge her basic knowledge and show the public how unprepared she really is. Really, all she needs to do is hold up until the elections. They chose her carefully in order to get McCain elected. After that, I think she will probably slip into the background until God forbid something happens to McCain.
There will be only one debate between Joe Biden and Sarah Palin. I am sure that Joe Biden is preparing too. He also has to be careful how he handles the debate. Dont’ forget, she is smart. And she seems to have experience answering questions she knows nothing about. All we can do is wait and see…and I hope she cracks. Sorry. She should not be in charge of this country! This is not Wasilla.


